of friends and home
Monday, January 4, 2010 . 8:15 AM
my second week of the semester. things are bound be get a little harder week by week. some of the subjects has a steep learning curve. especially object oriented programming. personally, i am quite freaked out by it all. sighz. i'm currently suffering from the OSIM (Oh Shit It's Monday) syndrome.
yeaps. i hate mondays. clear and to the point. as of now, i am just waiting for the TGIF syndrome to hit me!
yeah! even louder and clearer to the point. while waiting for that to happen, i am going to try and have fun with my friends.
that being said, i suppose i better appreciate the friends i have around me now. it's never easy for me to find friends, y'know..being emo,quiet and moody half the time...so i'm going to be thankful for people who accepted me for all that i am.
till this friday, toodles.
the end
Thursday, December 31, 2009 . 9:54 AM
its already 31st of december. i can't believe its the end of another year. well, 2009 was full of suprises for me. so much has happened this year. i worked for nearly half a year and started university which proved to be a harder feat than i thought.
im grateful for all the new friends i met in the past 12 months. colleagues from bright prospect. yunz from tricia's open house. university friends who made life a little better while i battled my demons during orientation week.
i wish 2010 will be a great year for all.
happy new year everyone!
last day of holiday.
Sunday, December 27, 2009 . 5:03 PM
i'm dreading it. my personal rendition of doomsday. this afternoon, i went back to college for a while. put on my bedsheets,arranged my clothes, and swept the floor. while i did all that, i was already feeling homesick. im counting down to the days when i get to be back in my own bed. being very "smart", i went and check the calendar for public holidays that would fall on weekdays this semester. there was none. and then i got emo. my thoughts are very jumbled up at the moment. i can barely think straight. hmpf.highlights of the week
Friday, December 25, 2009 . 9:00 PM
last week of my holidays is spent wonderfully. spontaneous trip to the movies with veron right after dinner on monday. movie and dinner with penny,suenxin,sonia,joyce, and jane on tuesday. wendy's and a trip to the OU parking bay and curve on wednesday with yunz and tricia. i was really happy to be able to spend my last days hanging out with friends. thanks to all those who made me week special!
former sri amanians. gotta love hanging out with them. oh oh, and jane on far right is from wellington, new zealand. she's fun too. gotta meet up with sri amanians more often.
a camwhore group pic. me, yunz and tricia. that was only my second encounter with yunz but when we hung out that day our main agenda was babysitting tricia and zha-ing her. lolz. hopefully there's a third,fourth,fifth...encounter with yunz again. =D
till next time...tataz.
it's christmast eve.
Thursday, December 24, 2009 . 11:52 PM
ten minutes before midnight,
i lay awake on my bed,
staring into space,
wishing i had someone,
who is counting down the seconds,
to be the first to wish me,
"have a merry christmast",
sprinkled with hearts and wishes,
though i know it's the season to be jolly,
but jolliness has its limits,
when you know you're spending it alone,
and everyone else is watching fireworks,
under a bright starry sky
warmed by the embrace of their loved ones,
times like these test my soul and heart,
times like these wear me out faster than the rest,
how many more years of 'times like these' do i have to take,
before the weight puts me down on my knees,
thus this christmast,
i wish for emotional strength like i always do,
together with some sense of security too,
so i could ease my aching heart into believing,
perhaps the world is still loving and caring.
for you.
Wednesday, December 23, 2009 . 9:36 PM
i was there waiting,
waiting to relive those moments,
but as you stand before me,
reality kicks in and expectations burn out,
and i heard the tinkling of my shattered heart,
frankly the hurt behind my smile,
was beginning to torture,
how long could i last,
without turning glassy eyed,
words that came out of your mouth,
never found its way into my mind,
i was too concentrated with The Walk,
a slow slow Walk down memory lane,
the times we laughed together,
the way your fingers fit in between mine,
the feel of my skin brushing yours,
i see them all crumbling down,
all that we had,
is nothing but a distant memory now,
your touches feel foreign,
your presence no longer vital,
back then i would have given anything,
anything at all to keep at bay,
the emptiness that overwhelms,
when the night is at its quitest,
i should've said or done something,
to salvage what was left,
even so,
as Time and Distance linger around,
no matter how hard i try,
to keep Them out of the way,
still i lost you fighting against Their powers,
so maybe it's finally time,
to give up the battle,
and let Them win.
one day i will
Monday, December 21, 2009 . 12:42 PM
i've had this song in my music collection for a while but it is only now i found it really inspiring especially after a heart-wrenching experience. the plus point for me? i love duets and male-female bands. lady antebellum rocks!
edit: this is dedicated to yunz. =P
You feel like you're falling backwards
Like you're slippin' through the cracks
Like no one would even notice
If you left this town and never came back
You walk outside and all you see is rain
You look inside and all you feel is pain
And you can't see it now
But down the road the sun is shining
In every cloud there's a silver lining
Just keep holding on (just keep holding on)
And every heartache makes you stronger
But it won't be much longer
You'll find love, you'll find peace
And the you you're meant to be
I know right now that's not the way you feel
But one day you will
You wake up every morning and ask yourself
What am I doing here anyway
With the weight of all those disappointments
Whispering in your ear
You're just barely hanging by a thread
You wanna scream but you're down to your last breath
And you don't know it yet
But down the road the sun is shining
In every cloud there's a silver lining
Just keep holding on (just keep holding on)
And every heartache makes you stronger
But it won't be much longer
You'll find love, you'll find peace
And the you you're meant to be
I know right now that's not the way you feel
But one day you will
Find the strength to rise above
You will
Find just what you're made of, you're made of
But down the road the sun is shining
In every cloud there's a silver lining
Just keep holding on (just keep holding on)
And every heartache makes you stronger
But it won't be much longer
You'll find love, you'll find peace
And the you you're meant to be
I know right now that's not the way you feel
But one day you will
One day you will
Oh one day you will
nearly the end
Friday, December 18, 2009 . 7:34 PM
end of holidays are near. im dreading it. i dont know why they make it compulsory. ugh. gg-ness.commitment-phobe?
Sunday, December 13, 2009 . 3:38 PM
these days i seem to more free and laid back. which probably led to a lot of thinking that was uncalled for. and i notice, one of the stronger vibes i felt was that i never really belonged anywhere except for my family. at this age i think i should at least have a rough idea of where i stand and work towards it. thing is, i never found my direction in life. i have pretty much lived life on an autopilot mode. i drift in and out of phases in life without knowing what i really want out of them. and just a few minutes ago i saw a few posts on fb regarding the recent MyLDS camp organized by AIESEC Malaysia and i thought, 'damn i wish i was there'.
y'see...AIESEC was one of those organizations i really wanted to join when i first came to upm. but i was afraid to do so in case it affected my studies. it was at this moment i realized that...i might just be a commitment phobe. geez. i could never commit myself to anything that would distract me from my primary goal in life right now...that is to survive university.
torn apart by fear of unnecessary commitment and desire to be part of an organization, i do what i always do best...i emo-ed...thinking why the hell did i turn out this way, blaming the world for the lonliness that surrounds me, and beating myself up for letting the world pass me by without doing anything. maybe i should be more extroverted. a little bit more open too. and learn how to relax around new people. sighz. im changing myself...but would it be for the better or worse?
dwelling in memories....
Monday, December 7, 2009 . 11:11 AM
In this world you tried,
Not leaving me alone behind.
There's no other way,
I pray to the gods let him stay.
The memories ease the pain inside,
And now I know why.
All of my memories keep you near.
In silent moments,
Imagining you here.
All of my memories keep you near,
In silent whispers, silent tears
Made me promise I'd try,
To find my way back in this life.
Hope there is a way,
To give me a sign you're okay.
Reminds me again it's worth it all,
So I can go home.
All of my memories keep you near.
In silent moments,
Imagining you here.
All of my memories keep you near.
In silent whispers, silent tears.
Together in all these memories,
I see your smile.
All of the memories I hold dear.
Darling you know I'll love you,
Til the end of time.
All of my memories keep you near
In silent moments,
Imagining you here.
All of my memories keep you near,
In silent whispers, silent tears.
All of my memories...
frustrated
Saturday, November 28, 2009 . 1:30 PM
these few days i get so frustrated easily. i wonder why. and the person who is getting the short end of the stick is my grandma. my temper always flare around her. maybe it's coz she suffocates me sometimes. too overprotective. too easily excited. especially when i drive. guilt creeps in at times when i do that. but what can i do. i dont like her mentality. enough about her. or i might go on about her the whole post. anyways, i have been stuck rotting at home for the 2 weeks of my holidays and i am dying to get out of the house. since it's christmast season, i think i'll go watch a few disney movies...=Da noticable change?
Saturday, November 21, 2009 . 2:53 PM
i suppose the change in my blog template is quite noticable. even when it came to the colour combinations of it. i suppose i needed a change since i have been lingering around the dark side for too long. so this time i chose something a little bit brighter than my usual colours which was always mainly grey/dark purple/black/crimson red. however,so note that even though my colours are much more attractive this time, i am still who i am. do not hope to see cute teddy bears and voodoo dolls decorating my blog. coz brighter colours dont really necessarily mean a brighter attitude.
speaking of attitude, i just came to realize that i am not really a good friend to those around me. i mean, all the time i keep making promises i cant keep. well, they're not really promises but just words that i cannot fulfill even though i intended to do so when it came out of my mouth. but as time passes i get lost in the midst of studies and "trying to have a life" i completely forget about them. come to think of it, i am selfish in a way.
and i am becoming more and more of a loner i guess. this is not a good sign.
pancakes,tricia and an old sad song
Thursday, November 19, 2009 . 1:20 AM
been thinking of promoting my favourite cafe a while back but i never really got a chance to do so. after much pestering i managed to get my dad to bring me there for a good hearty breakfast on monday and it was good!! i love their breakfast sets. and coffee. mmm. lattes!! yeah. you heard me. i am a caffeine junkie. i dont think i can live without drinking coffee/latte/espresso for a week. i'll just drop dead.
yeah. i agree with this slogan. fits the description perfectly.
oh btw. did i mention that it's called pan cafe?
the cover of the menu.
my pancake set!
and my iced rose cafe latte! check out the rose essence at the bottom of the glass. that was my first time trying the drink and i fell in love with it on the first sip. lolz.
my grandma's assam chicken rice. i dont recommend eating their oriental food here. their breakfasts and westerns are slightly better. but fried rice is okay though.
my dad's iced lemon tea. looks normal. 
the counter which i am always facing everytime i go to the cafe. coz i always sit at the same spot. lolz.
on the other hand, went for lunch with tricia yesterday...which pretty much turned out to be a tea meal instead of lunch. but its all good. after our meal in prince, we went for a spontaneous trip to tropicana city mall thinking we could catch a movie. but alas, time does not allow that so we settled for a crazy time of SSing. lolz. most of the pictures are posted on facebook but i post some here for fun. =P.
we tried on stuff on kitschen and had a blast with the camera. well,more like SHE had a blast with the camera. XD.
a pair of wedding bears on display at borders.
me and my snowball man. so cute!
we invited a few characters from toys r us to join us in our insane moment.
i love hugging huge toys. too bad i have sinus. or else my room would be full of those stuff. 
a punching pillar(?) which didnt work very well. it didnt stand its ground when tricia delivered her super punch (i think i can hear tricia saying "RAWR!")
on a side note. i am very much addicted to whitney houston's old song. what a powerful song to listen to when im wallowing in self pity.
and i'll end here.
blog quizzes again
Sunday, November 8, 2009 . 12:19 PM
yesh. i am bored. so i keep myself out of boredom by taking lots of quizzes.
| Your Best Trait is Creativity |
 You may seem like you're a bit flaky or flighty, but you're really just deep in thought. You are the artistic type, no doubt. However, you are also highly analytical and logical. You are able to solve problems in unique and interesting ways. Your ideas are unpredictable, but they always end up making sense. You are picky and sometimes downright critical. You expect the best of yourself, but others are not prepared for your exacting standards. |
| Your City is Istanbul |
 You are hip and modern. You are an expert on what's hot, and you are always up for trying the newest things. You play so much that people may ask if you ever work at all. You're the type to party until dawn, even on a work night. You are liberal and progressive. You may have grown up around conservative elements, but you reject them completely. People can't help but notice your style and flair. You are getting more popular every day. |
| Your Sensitivity Score: 59% |
 As far as sensitivity goes, you're a lot more in tune than most people. You can't help but be touched by what's around you - good and bad. But when things do get really bad around you, you are strong enough not to break down. |
| Your Risk Taking Level: Medium-Low |
 You'll take a risk if you have to, but you prefer to err on the side of caution. If something looks like it's going to work out, you may just go for it. But frivolous risks like gambling totally aren't your style. You prefer to have as much control over your life as possible. |
| Your Fragrance Profile |
 The best calming fragrance: vanilla The best fragrance for everyday wear: orange The best fragrance to boost your sex appeal: lavender The best fragrance for energy: pine |
| You Are a Dreamer |
 You are primarily concerned with possibilities. You tend to be a fanciful person. All of the world's opportunities sometimes overwhelm you. You are obsessed with ideas and tend to be a big thinker. Theories interest you greatly. You crave intellectual stimulation. You are drawn to a philosophical way of life. |
| Your Brain is 47% Female, 53% Male |
 Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female You are both sensitive and savvy Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve |
| You Are a Salty Person |
 When it comes to snacks, you're more likely to grab a bag of chips over a bag of cookies. Your taste tends to be complex, sophisticated, and adult. You tend to crave your favorite restaurant meal... or mom's cooking. |
| You Are a Auditory Learner |
 You tend to remember what you hear, and you have a knack for speaking well. You excel at debating, foreign languages, and music. You would be an excellent diplomat - or rock star! |
You Are Ashlee Simpson! |
 Stylish, unique, talented You're your own woman! "It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real I like the way that feels" |
wah!
Tuesday, November 3, 2009 . 8:47 PM
still in the middle of exam season. but im halfway through it. three more tough subjects to go and voila. im on my way to genting with my coursemates right after. lolz. and shit. i gained weight. need to start my exercise routine again. im not sure as of when i gained, before or after i moved back home for semester break, but i know i have been eating a lot lately. which is something i have to stop if i would like to still fit into my clothes. sighz. i'm currently looking for a sports partner. hm. wonder where can i buy one of those. anyways, i just bought books chick-lit books. famous authors, but for a fraction of the market price for those.
RM20.00 for each book. the one from meg cabot is a two in one omnibus, so technically, its RM40.00 for three books. so happy. love books. and to think that mph sells each book at almost double the price. meanwhile, i caught a picture of a dark looking doll which i thought was quite pretty. a gothic pullip doll. lolz. see?
i remember at one point these dolls were tricia's obsession. lolz. she used to search all over the internet and see how people decorated their dolls with trendy clothes. then again, she has lots of temporary obesssions. david cook,tvxq,pullip dolls, etc etc.
well, thats all for today. tataz.
of modern solo pianists and symphonic metal screamers
Saturday, October 31, 2009 . 12:14 PM
i'm still caught in the midst of exams, trying to concentrate despite all the distractions that lay around me. but my current interests lay in finding the perfect piano piece. like this one:
this video reminded me of fond memories of watching charmed. and how much i miss being carefree. the first time i heard it, it tugged at my heartstrings. and from then on, i have been searching for pieces like this, to add a little bit of tender serenity to my super angsty music compilation.
somewhere along the way, i found jo blankenburg's website. what amuses me most was not his songs (although they are really easy to the ears) but the way his site was set up(in his main site). in all my life of internet surfing, i rarely come across sites that make use of animated mechanisms with such good graphics. be sure to check out the music section too. meanwhile, new age piano is a great place to listen to streaming piano solos.
i want to go back to watching jigoku shoujo mitsuganae now. i must say this is the best season of jigoku shoujo i have watched so far. very intriguing. so obsessed with her ruby eyes and feigned nonchalance. lolz.
tataz.
exam week and...
Tuesday, October 27, 2009 . 12:04 PM
I'm too lazy to read stupid claims like how Islam is the greatest religion of all time...or how good and efficient our govenrment is. honestly, i dont give a rat's ass about Islam Civilization and Ethnic Studies. It's all a big load of BS. Oh well, I suppose things would be better after this week. I can't help but to feel slightly detached from my friend, wether they are new or old. Old friends, I hardly make an effort to stay in touch. New friends, they are all bonding over meals and badminton matches in the hostel while I am home. Feeling pretty much alone in the world right now. The only static people I have in my life would be my family. Meanwhile, struck by boredom, I did something nostalgic...quizzes!! I'm posting my results just to keep my blog alive and kicking
Your Birthday is Pink
You are the dreamy type. You can't help but be an idealist, even if your dreams get crushed from time to time.
You have a vision of how the world should be. You work hard to make life easier and better for people.
You are generous. In fact, you give until it hurts and expect nothing in return.
You are sometimes disappointed. It's discouraging to have such high hopes when things don't work out.
| Personality Type Quiz |
Realistic Personality Type  |
Fun quizzes, surveys & blog quizzes by  |
You Are Carbs
You are a very energetic and seductive person. You tend to be driven by your impulses, and people often find you tempting.
Often your energy is brief and almost manic. You have a lot of ups and downs if you're not careful.
When you take care of yourself, you feel alert, balanced, and satisfied. You can live a very balanced life if you play your cards right.
When you don't take care of yourself, your life is a nightmare. You can be moody, cranky, and unpredictable.
| When Will You Meet Your Next Boyfriend? |
You'll Find a Boyfriend Within 3 Months  Or maybe you need a confidence boost to talk to new guys Either way, you'll find a boyfriend in time... As long as you keep getting out there and meeting new guys |
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You Believe That You're Fearless |
 You don't give up easily, and you're in it for the long run. You have incredible endurance. You respect people who are brave and try to do their best. Effort counts for a lot in your book. You have no respect for people who are paralyzed by their fears. In your opinion, that's just a life wasted. |
Your Name Comes From the Moon
 You are a moody person, and you are constantly seeking balance in your life. You feel connected to all beings. You are very sympathetic and understanding. You are very influenced by who is around you. Too much negativity is certain to overwhelm you. You are happiest when you are alone with nature, especially when you're around water. |
Your British Name Is Chloe Ruby |
 Bloody brilliant! |
You are a Vampire Movie |
 You believe that evil isn't exactly black and white. In fact, the dark side can be incredibly seductive at times. You like vampire movies because they are more morally ambiguous and complicated. Sometimes it can feel so good to be with someone bad. You like the dance between good and evil. You prefer that the conflict is more nuanced and mental than physical. Your favorite movies portray a complex villain ... films like Blade, Dracula, and Twilight. |
You Are Silver
 You are down to earth and unpretentious. You don't feel like you need to show off, and you're very secure with your place in the world. You are understated and elegant. You carry yourself with poise, and you're more known for what you don't do than what you do. You can fit in anywhere from a country western bar to a black tie gala. You are adaptable and adventurous. |
 In general, you're very happy being single. You like doing your own thing, and you're happy not to have to compromise. You're not opposed to being attached, but you're not going to settle. Someone else should your enhance your life, and you're happy to wait for that person. |
You Are a Burger
 You are a down to earth person and a straight shooter. You don't fall for fads or trends. You are stable and a bit old fashioned. Tradition and loyalty are important to you. You are a good friend and you like to have a good time. You find it easy to kick back. You're not one to make waves in life. You're happy just to be a part of the fun. |
 You are social, outgoing, and excited to connect to your friends. You are interested in your friends' lives, and you enjoy adding your opinion to the mix. While you enjoy sharing online, you don't want everyone to know your business. You value your privacy. Your life is an open book to those you know but not to strangers. |
 You are inspiring and uplifting. You bring out the best in people, through both nurturing and challenging them. You always can see the big picture in life. You are very philosophical and deeply spiritual. You understand people, and you can look at their lives objectively. You can help others grow and heal. People feel comforted by your presence. You help them gain perspective on their lives. |
You Are Affectionate
 Your life is full of love and friendship - and you always have more to give. You have an open heart. You are willing to take that leap and put your faith in people. You see the good in everyone and everything. You are a very sympathetic person. The people you love make you very happy. You feel warmly toward those around you. |
never thought i would say this...
Monday, October 19, 2009 . 4:05 PM
...but home is where i want to be. always. growing up, i always thought i could take care of myself pretty well. fact is, i can. it's just that i dont want to. over the years, as my rebellious phase faded, my relationship with my parents grew stable, i am truly comfortable with them. no masks. no concealment. and they care about me. well, duh. they are family right. friends here care too. i know they do in some ways. but i dont know why, i find that there's something between us. language barrier perhaps? communication is no problem. but...interest wise, the difference is like night and day. could it be that i have grown more reclusive? could it be that my silence intimidates people? or my emo attitude sets people off? all i know is the longer i am here, the strain gets worse.back here again....
Monday, October 12, 2009 . 11:43 AM
back in college after travelling to and fro from home for a week. i dont have the mood to rant on and on today. so i will just post up some pictures from Lantern Festival 2009 organized by K11 and K10. captionless of course.
aikz. feeling lazy already. tataz. need to find something to entertain me....
oooohh.....im so addicted!!
Tuesday, September 29, 2009 . 4:53 PM
Within Temptation feat Chris Jones - Utopia
The burning desire
to live and roam free,
it shines in the dark
and it grows within me
You're holding my hand
but you don't understand
So where I am going,
you won't be in the end
I'm dreaming in colours
of getting the chance
Dreaming of ( trying )
The perfect romance
In search of the door,
to open your mind
In search of the cure
of mankind
Help us we're drowning
So close up inside
Why does it rain, rain, rain
down on Utopia?
Why does it have to kill
the idea of who we are?
Why does it rain, rain, rain
down on Utopia?
How will the lights die down,
telling us who we are?
I'm searching for answers
not given for free
You're hurting inside,
is there life within me?
You're holding my hand,
but you don't understand
You're taking the road
all alone in the end
I'm dreaming in colours
No boundaries are there
I'm dreaming the dream.
and I'll sing to share
In search of the door,
to open your mind
In search of the cure
of mankind
Help us we're drowning
So close up inside
Why does it rain, rain, rain
down on Utopia?
Why does it have to kill
the idea of who we are?
Why does it rain, rain, rain
down on Utopia?
How will the lights die down,
telling us who we are?
Why does it rain, rain, rain
down on Utopia?
Why does it have to kill
the idea of who we are?
Why does it rain, rain, rain
down on Utopia?
How will the lights die down,
telling us who we are?
Why does it rain?
OMG!!!!! i am so so in love with this song.
some people should learn how to respect.
Monday, September 28, 2009 . 4:49 PM
Photo: Polk/Getty
Leave it to Kanye West to produce one of the most infamous moments in VMAs history before the 2009 show was even an hour old. It happened after Taylor Swift’s victory in the Best Female Video category for “You Belong With Me,” which beat out Beyoncé’s “Single Ladies (Put a Ring On It).” Just moments after Swift accepted the Moonman and began her acceptance speech, West stormed the stage, taking the microphone from Swift to announce Beyoncé deserved the award.
VMAs 2009 in photos: Kanye’s stage invasion, Madonna pays tribute to MJ and more.
“Thank you so much!” Swift began. “I always dreamed about what it would be like to maybe win one of these some day, but I never actually thought it would have happened. I sing country music so thank you so much for giving me a chance to win a VMA award.”
Before she could continue, West broke in. “Yo Taylor, I’m really happy for you, I’ll let you finish, but Beyoncé has one of the best videos of all time. One of the best videos of all time!” Kanye shouted to a mortified Swift and the speechless audience. And as quickly as he ran onstage — MTV cut away to show Pink applauding Taylor, and when they flashed back to Swift, West already had the mic in his hand — he was off, leaving a shocked Swift in his wake.
Everyone at the Radio City Music Hall looked stunned, as the cameras captured an astonished and horrified Beyoncé still in her seat. Soon after, the audience gave a standing ovation in support of Swift. To add insult to injury, after Kanye handed the microphone back to Swift, her time was up, and MTV cut to a video featuring Tracy Morgan and Eminem. Minutes after the incident went down, MTV Chairman and CEO Judy McGrath was feverishly typing into her phone when Diddy came up for a chat. Topic of conversation? What else but West. “Like Diddy just said, ‘It’s rock & roll,’ ” McGrath commented to RS. “And the applause for [Taylor] will be louder.”
Look back at Kanye’s other awards-show outbursts, and the most famous stage invasion in rock history.
According to sources at the VMAs, Swift was seen hysterically crying backstage after Kanye’s outburst, making it convenient that the first part of her performance of “You Belong to Me,” which immediately followed the acceptance speech, was prerecorded. (Swift emerged from the subway exit and performed atop a cab outside the venue live.) Wale, who is serving as MC for the house band, told the crowd, “You can’t fault a man for speaking his mind,” which was promptly met by boos from the Radio City Music Hall crowd. According to our sources inside Radio City, Kanye was promptly tossed from the VMAs after interrupting Swift’s speech and headed to West Village haunt the Spotted Pig. “I’m assuming based on the amount of Hennessey I saw [West] drink that he was not all there,” Fall Out Boy’s Patrick Stump told Rolling Stone backstage at the show.
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Near the end of the show, Beyoncé invited Swift onstage to have the acceptance speech she deserved while picking up her own Moonman for Video of the Year. Later, West posted an apology on his blog:
“I’m sooooo sorry to taylor swift and her fans and her mom. I spoke to her mother right after and she said the same thing my mother would’ve said. She is very talented! I like the lyrics about being a cheerleader and she’s in the bleachers! …………………… i’m in the wrong for going on stage and taking away from her moment!……………. beyonce’s video was the best of this decade! I’m sorry to my fans if I let you guys down! I’m sorry to my friends at mtv. I will apologize to taylor 2mrw. welcome to the real world! everybody wanna booooo me but i’m a fan of real pop culture! No disrespect but we watchin’ the show at the crib right now cause … well you know! i’m still happy for taylor! Boooyaaawwww! you are very very talented! I gave my awards to outkast when they deserved it over me… that’s what it is!! i’m not crazy yall, i’m just real. Sorry for that! I really feel bad for taylor and i’m sincerely sorry! Much respect!!”
i have been meaning to post this up a long time ago when I heard of this incident. the VMAs seemed to have happened ages ago but i am still sore over what happened to taylor swift. poor girl. i dont think she expected this to happen at all. in fact, i dont think anyone did. her first award and she didnt even get to finish her acceptance speech. but i have new found respect for beyonce though. so thoughtful of her to call taylor up on stage to finish her acceptance speech which was "conviniently" intercepted by kanye. being young and innocent, i dont think taylor knew how to handle the raw situation. kanye maybe a talented artist (and i dont even like to listen to his music ) but in my heart he has definitely earned the award for being a first class jerk, boosting taylor's ranking in my favourite artists list higher and higher. despite being 32, i think his maturity level scores way below someone who is half his age. cheers to taylor, and beyonce!
Blue and bluer
Sunday, September 27, 2009 . 10:28 PM
sighz. after one week of enjoying life at home, i will be leaving home for the back-to-basics lifestyle in campus. i never knew home could be so comforting. and yesh. even after what seems like eternity, i have yet to call my hostel my home. unlike some coursemates who always refer to our dingy little rooms as a home. the only home i ever knew is the one in section 14, pj. anywhere else would either be a hostel or a hotel. well, with the expection of the house in ipoh. and to think i have to start mugging again. i can only imagine myself...perhaps 4 years from now. no social life, reserved and totally career-oriented. then i will be mankind's saddest case in human form.
SIGHZ! SIGHZ! SIGHZ! SIGHZ! SIGHZ! SIGHZ! SIGHZ! SIGHZ!
lemang...ketupat!!
Wednesday, September 23, 2009 . 1:02 PM
it's been a while since i'd seen lemang and ketupats. so i took a shot of it for memory....
